1/21/23

we live in a time of bad change
nothing is what i think it is
nothing stays the same

i kicked some snow into the world
and it drifted away
have you seen what snow does

you wouldn’t care
if you closed your eyes you’d see
the same stuff you don’t care about

i took an animal and watched it die
i took an animal and watched it die
i took an animal and watched it die

1/17/23

they're watching tennis in australia
i have my period

Books I Read in 2022

What follows is a list of all the books I read in 2022.

(What follows that is a series of statistics regarding this list, and some other things.)

  1. Brave New World (1932) by Aldous Huxley (Jan. 1–4)

  2. X’ed Out (2010) by Charles Burns (Jan. 4)

  3. The Hive (2012) by Charles Burns (Jan. 5)

  4. Sugar Skull (2014) by Charles Burns (Jan. 6)

  5. MW (1978) by Osamu Tezuka (Jan. 7–9)

  6. The Setting Sun (1947) by Osamu Dazai (Jan. 11–13)

  7. *No Longer Human (1948) by Osamu Dazai (Jan. 14–15)

  8. The Woman in the Dunes (1962) by Kōbō Abe (Jan. 16–19)

  9. Where I Have Most Injured I Can Least Forgive (2022) by Stephen Sturgeon (Jan. 21)

  10. *The Face of Another (1964) by Kōbō Abe (Jan. 21–24)

  11. The Ruined Map (1967) by Kōbō Abe (Jan. 25–30)

  12. The Box Man (1973) by Kōbō Abe (Feb. 1–4)

  13. Bullet Train (2010) by Kōtarō Isaka (Feb. 4–8)

  14. The Perennial Philosophy (1945) by Aldous Huxley (Feb. 9–14)

  15. The Doors of Perception (1954) by Aldous Huxley (Feb. 15)

  16. Heaven and Hell (1956) by Aldous Huxley (Feb. 16)

  17. Island (1962) by Aldous Huxley (Feb. 17–24)

  18. Ten Mornings (2022) by Stephen Sturgeon (Feb. 25)

  19. Childhood (1967) by Tove Ditlevsen (Feb. 25–26)

  20. Youth (1967) by Tove Ditlevsen (Feb. 27–28)

  21. Dependency (1971) by Tove Ditlevsen (Mar. 1–2)

  22. Empire Star (1966) by Samuel R. Delany (Mar. 3–4)

  23. Babel-17 (1966) by Samuel R. Delany (Mar. 6–8)

  24. Nova (1968) by Samuel R. Delany (Mar. 9–12)

  25. Times Square Red, Times Square Blue (1999) by Samuel R. Delany (Mar. 13–18)

  26. Another Now (2020) by Yanis Varoufakis (Mar. 22–25)

  27. In the Camps (2021) by Darren Byler (Mar. 29–30)

  28. Everything Is Totally Fine (2022) by Zac Smith (Apr. 1–2)

  29. Pure Colour (2022) by Sheila Heti (Apr. 3–4)

  30. In the Margins (2021) by Elena Ferrante (Apr. 5)

  31. Soldiers’ Pay (1926) by William Faulkner (Apr. 6–9)

  32. Mosquitoes (1927) by William Faulkner (Apr. 10–14)

  33. The Convergence of the Virgins (2022) by Stephen Sturgeon (Apr. 12)

  34. Flags in the Dust (1929) by William Faulkner (Apr. 16–22)

  35. *The Sound and the Fury (1929) by William Faulkner (Apr. 26–30)

  36. *As I Lay Dying (1930) by William Faulkner (May 1–3)

  37. These Thirteen (1931) by William Faulkner (May 5–8)

  38. Pale Horse, Pale Rider (1939) by Katherine Anne Porter (May 9–11)

  39. The Old Order (1955) by Katherine Anne Porter (May 12–14)

  40. *The Awakening (1899) by Kate Chopin (May 15–17)

  41. The Kiss and Other Stories (1897) by Kate Chopin (May 19)

  42. The Heart Is a Lonely Hunter (1940) by Carson McCullers (May 20–25)

  43. Reflections in a Golden Eye (1941) by Carson McCullers (May 26–27)

  44. The Member of the Wedding (1946) by Carson McCullers (May 30–31)

  45. The Ballad of the Sad Café (1951) by Carson McCullers (June 1–6)

  46. Clock Without Hands (1961) by Carson McCullers (June 7–10)

  47. A Curtain of Green (1941) by Eudora Welty (June 11–14)

  48. The Wide Net and Other Stories (1943) by Eudora Welty (June 14–15)

  49. Other Voices, Other Rooms (1948) by Truman Capote (June 16–18)

  50. A Tree of Night and Other Stories (1949) by Truman Capote (June 19–21)

  51. The Golden Apples (1949) by Eudora Welty (June 21–27)

  52. The Bride of Innisfallen and Other Stories (1955) by Eudora Welty (June 27–29)

  53. Wise Blood (1952) by Flannery O’Connor (July 1–3)

  54. A Good Man Is Hard to Find (1955) by Flannery O’Connor (July 4–6)

  55. The Violent Bear It Away (1960) by Flannery O’Connor (July 7–9)

  56. Everything That Rises Must Converge (1965) by Flannery O’Connor (July 10–12)

  57. The Complete Stories (1971) by Flannery O’Connor (July 13–14)

  58. The Moviegoer (1961) by Walker Percy (July 15–20)

  59. A Confederacy of Dunces (1980) by John Kennedy Toole (July 23–Aug. 7)

  60. Deliverance (1970) by James Dickey (Aug. 7–13)

  61. Edisto (1984) by Padgett Powell (Aug. 14–17)

  62. The Stonemason (1994) by Cormac McCarthy (Aug. 19–20)

  63. The Sunset Limited (2006) by Cormac McCarthy (Aug. 21–22)

  64. Yonder Stands Your Orphan (2001) by Barry Hannah (Aug. 23–28)

  65. Long, Last, Happy (2010) by Barry Hannah (Aug. 29–31)

  66. Hush Hush (2012) by Steven Barthelme (Sept. 1–3)

  67. *Light in August (1932) by William Faulkner (Sept. 4–9)

  68. Doctor Martino and Other Stories (1934) by William Faulkner (Sept. 10–18)

  69. *Absalom, Absalom! (1936) by William Faulkner (Sept. 19–23)

  70. The Unvanquished (1938) by William Faulkner (Sept. 25–27)

  71. The Wild Palms (1939) by William Faulkner (Sept. 28–Oct. 3)

  72. Lapvona (2022) by Ottessa Moshfegh (Oct. 17–19)

  73. The Gardener’s Son (1996) by Cormac McCarthy (Oct. 24)

  74. The Passenger (2022) by Cormac McCarthy (Oct. 25–29)

  75. The English Understand Wool (2022) by Helen DeWitt (Oct. 30)

  76. The Dead Zone (1979) by Stephen King (Oct. 31–Nov. 4)

  77. Watershed (1996) by Percival Everett (Nov. 5–7)

  78. Telephone (2020) by Percival Everett (Nov. 8–9)

  79. The Trees (2021) by Percival Everett (Nov. 10–11)

  80. Dr. No (2022) by Percival Everett (Nov. 14–16)

  81. Life Is Everywhere (2022) by Lucy Ives (Nov. 17–21)

  82. Dead on Top of Saturn (2022) by Stephen Sturgeon (Nov. 22)

  83. Is Mother Dead (2020) by Vigdis Hjorth (Nov. 22–26)

  84. Liberation Day (2022) by George Saunders (Nov. 27–29)

  85. NDA (2022) by Caitlin Forst et al. (Dec. 3–4)

  86. Life Among the Aryans (2022) by Ishmael Reed (Dec. 6)

  87. Stella Maris (2022) by Cormac McCarthy (Dec. 7–9)

  88. The Twilight World (2021) by Werner Herzog (Dec. 10)

  89. Aesthetica (2022) by Allie Rowbottom (Dec. 11–13)

  90. Pinktoes (1961) by Chester Himes (Dec. 14–16)

  91. A Case of Rape (1963) by Chester Himes (Dec. 17–18)

  92. Cotton Comes to Harlem (1964) by Chester Himes (Dec. 19–21)

  93. The Heat’s On (1966) by Chester Himes (Dec. 22–24)

  94. Blind Man With a Pistol (1969) by Chester Himes (Dec. 25–27)

  95. Plan B (1983) by Chester Himes (Dec. 28–30)

  96. Santa’s Descent (2022) by Brandon Brown and J. Gordon Faylor (Dec. 31)


*Previously read

# books read: 96
# books read for the first time: 89
# books reread: 7
# books read on average per month: 8
# books written by men: 66
# books written by women: 28
# books written by more than one person: 2
# distinct authors: 42
# male authors: 28
# female authors: 14
# novels: 54
# novellas: 1
# novella collections: 1
# short story collections: 18
# memoirs: 3
# essay collections: 1
# books of nonfiction: 5
# plays: 3
# screenplays: 1
# chapbooks: 5
# graphic novels: 4
# books translated from another language to english: 14
# books published in 2022: 17
# books published in 21st century: 32
# books published in 20th century: 62
# books published in 19th century: 2

Standouts:
Brave New World (1932) by Aldous Huxley
The Box Man (1973) by Kōbō Abe
Bullet Train (2010) by Kōtarō Isaka
Babel-17 (1966) by Samuel R. Delany
Times Square Red, Times Square Blue (1999) by Samuel R. Delany
These Thirteen (1931) by William Faulkner
Absalom, Absalom! (1936) by William Faulkner
Clock Without Hands (1961) by Carson McCullers
A Curtain of Green (1941) by Eudora Welty
The Complete Stories (1971) by Flannery O’Connor
A Confederacy of Dunces (1980) by John Kennedy Toole
Deliverance (1970) by James Dickey
Yonder Stands Your Orphan (2001) by Barry Hannah
Lapvona (2022) by Ottessa Moshfegh
The Passenger (2022) by Cormac McCarthy
Stella Maris (2022) by Cormac McCarthy
Dr. No (2022) by Percival Everett
The Heat’s On (1966) by Chester Himes
Plan B (1983) by Chester Himes

Takeaway:
When you read every day, you live two lives: your crappy ongoing one and a conciser, ingenious segment conceived by somebody else for your benefit.

11/15/22

Landlord took our basement doors off the hinges five days ago. I saw where he put one, but the other was conspicuously absent for all my snooping. I had three dreams about the missing door. This afternoon it reappeared in its frame. I left two cupcakes in the barn. My dreams misled me.

8/2/22

white birch forest
and an intestine
filled with loose change

hospital jones blues

dragged myself to the hospital
to see what they could find
dragged my ass down to the hospital
to see what they could find
they said you got insurance baby
i said yeah, they said back of the line

drew some blood at the hospital
think they took a pint
lost my blood all over the hospital
i believe they spilled the whole vial flight
but they ain't gonna scoop it up now
they say what’d’you think we got all night?

laid me down at the hospital
showered me with light
they laid down in a hospital bed
scanned my body with the harshest light
said the radiation don't hurt a bit child
but what barks tomorrow today might not bite

tied my wrists at the hospital
said it made me easier to identify
chained those ties to the gurney bar
they said it was for my own good just hold tight
but my baby ain’t visited lately
i dreamed she’s out there flying my kite

they sang a song to me at the hospital
dripped straight scag through the iv
sang a song at that evil hospital
just like an elegy
said i wouldn’t remember a thing
but i remember seeing double yes i do
and they zipped me in a bag still shivering

coppertone vice

people have been trying to pull me down
my entire life
you get the picture
on bottles, billboards
you've seen it
until the day
my father put me in a half nelson
and yanked
those cyan panties down for good
maybe that's why i became a cop
i wanted more
than just a tan line on my hip

5/6/22

i don’t know how
i strove so long
to uninvent
in the face of horror
it’s hard to explain
how it made me feel stronger
to not forge
or concoct
in the wake of horror
to refuse
to contribute
to such flagrant slaughter

4/23/22

grackle
you are fake
i’ve seen
dust
this sucks
chest hurts
i woke up with redacted
and went away
nose wet
flagging an uber
in the forest
wondering why it’s not dead

2/14/22

amazon gift card is like giving you a voucher for air
and saying you’ll suffocate if you don’t redeem it
stop putting stickers on fruits and vegetables
forget everything and don't start over
if your subculture can be represented
it has become a part of culture
all talking is reactive
so i have taken a vow of farting
drill music is degenerate art à la paul klee
wwiii has a unique, encrypted digital footprint
je suis an unvaccinated truck driver
winter pilled bowling for cupid