11/26/23

oh no, my anger
and contempt
cannot fade
they are contained

the world is rippled
cartilage
congealed rack
thinner than flat blood

11/25/23

no trust
no warning
white dust
black morning

9/1/23

in the dark thrill
of my longing
i was a man
in a t-shirt
unbecoming

8/29/2023 - prep notes for a job interview

gruner veltliner

riesling
sancerre

pet nat
skin contact
funky
organic
no sulfites

rudolf steiner

pinot noir
lambrusco
gamay

provence rose

tin hat - mycorrhiza
champlain orchards
citizen cider
northern spy

barr hill

7/19/23

spaceship earth give up
on me
on my green blanket
given to me by a mother
who i won’t see again
cheese
distinction
yogurt?
hand soap cilantro
poblano pellet gun caryatid
with gouged genital flop
falling off

in response to 'iggy horse' (2023) by michael earl craig

absurd but deadpan sincere
humans and animals look at
a world that is mutable
and mutating before them
they don't ask many questions
they accept this alien world
—as we do, i guess—
they observe events as they
happen to themselves
owls and horses
funny ones and ghosts
they dance

1/21/23

we live in a time of bad change
nothing is what i think it is
nothing stays the same

i kicked some snow into the world
and it drifted away
have you seen what snow does

you wouldn’t care
if you closed your eyes you’d see
the same stuff you don’t care about

i took an animal and watched it die
i took an animal and watched it die
i took an animal and watched it die

1/17/23

they're watching tennis in australia
i have my period

Books I Read in 2022

What follows is a list of all the books I read in 2022.

(What follows that is a series of statistics regarding this list, and some other things.)

1. Brave New World (1932) by Aldous Huxley (Jan. 1–4)

2. X’ed Out (2010) by Charles Burns (Jan. 4)

3. The Hive (2012) by Charles Burns (Jan. 5)

4. Sugar Skull (2014) by Charles Burns (Jan. 6)

5. MW (1978) by Osamu Tezuka (Jan. 7–9)

6. The Setting Sun (1947) by Osamu Dazai (Jan. 11–13)

7. *No Longer Human (1948) by Osamu Dazai (Jan. 14–15)

8. The Woman in the Dunes (1962) by Kōbō Abe (Jan. 16–19)

9. Where I Have Most Injured I Can Least Forgive (2022) by Stephen Sturgeon (Jan. 21)

10. *The Face of Another (1964) by Kōbō Abe (Jan. 21–24)

11. The Ruined Map (1967) by Kōbō Abe (Jan. 25–30)

12. The Box Man (1973) by Kōbō Abe (Feb. 1–4)

13. Bullet Train (2010) by Kōtarō Isaka (Feb. 4–8)

14. The Perennial Philosophy (1945) by Aldous Huxley (Feb. 9–14)

15. The Doors of Perception (1954) by Aldous Huxley (Feb. 15)

16. Heaven and Hell (1956) by Aldous Huxley (Feb. 16)

17. Island (1962) by Aldous Huxley (Feb. 17–24)

18. Ten Mornings (2022) by Stephen Sturgeon (Feb. 25)

19. Childhood (1967) by Tove Ditlevsen (Feb. 25–26)

20. Youth (1967) by Tove Ditlevsen (Feb. 27–28)

21. Dependency (1971) by Tove Ditlevsen (Mar. 1–2)

22. Empire Star (1966) by Samuel R. Delany (Mar. 3–4)

23. Babel-17 (1966) by Samuel R. Delany (Mar. 6–8)

24. Nova (1968) by Samuel R. Delany (Mar. 9–12)

25. Times Square Red, Times Square Blue (1999) by Samuel R. Delany (Mar. 13–18)

26. Another Now (2020) by Yanis Varoufakis (Mar. 22–25)

27. In the Camps (2021) by Darren Byler (Mar. 29–30)

28. Everything Is Totally Fine (2022) by Zac Smith (Apr. 1–2)

29. Pure Colour (2022) by Sheila Heti (Apr. 3–4)

30. In the Margins (2021) by Elena Ferrante (Apr. 5)

31. Soldiers’ Pay (1926) by William Faulkner (Apr. 6–9)

32. Mosquitoes (1927) by William Faulkner (Apr. 10–14)

33. The Convergence of the Virgins (2022) by Stephen Sturgeon (Apr. 12)

34. Flags in the Dust (1929) by William Faulkner (Apr. 16–22)

35. *The Sound and the Fury (1929) by William Faulkner (Apr. 26–30)

36. *As I Lay Dying (1930) by William Faulkner (May 1–3)

37. These Thirteen (1931) by William Faulkner (May 5–8)

38. Pale Horse, Pale Rider (1939) by Katherine Anne Porter (May 9–11)

39. The Old Order (1955) by Katherine Anne Porter (May 12–14)

40. *The Awakening (1899) by Kate Chopin (May 15–17)

41. The Kiss and Other Stories (1897) by Kate Chopin (May 19)

42. The Heart Is a Lonely Hunter (1940) by Carson McCullers (May 20–25)

43. Reflections in a Golden Eye (1941) by Carson McCullers (May 26–27)

44. The Member of the Wedding (1946) by Carson McCullers (May 30–31)

45. The Ballad of the Sad Café (1951) by Carson McCullers (June 1–6)

46. Clock Without Hands (1961) by Carson McCullers (June 7–10)

47. A Curtain of Green (1941) by Eudora Welty (June 11–14)

48. The Wide Net and Other Stories (1943) by Eudora Welty (June 14–15)

49. Other Voices, Other Rooms (1948) by Truman Capote (June 16–18)

50. A Tree of Night and Other Stories (1949) by Truman Capote (June 19–21)

51. The Golden Apples (1949) by Eudora Welty (June 21–27)

52. The Bride of Innisfallen and Other Stories (1955) by Eudora Welty (June 27–29)

53. Wise Blood (1952) by Flannery O’Connor (July 1–3)

54. A Good Man Is Hard to Find (1955) by Flannery O’Connor (July 4–6)

55. The Violent Bear It Away (1960) by Flannery O’Connor (July 7–9)

56. Everything That Rises Must Converge (1965) by Flannery O’Connor (July 10–12)

57. The Complete Stories (1971) by Flannery O’Connor (July 13–14)

58. The Moviegoer (1961) by Walker Percy (July 15–20)

59. A Confederacy of Dunces (1980) by John Kennedy Toole (July 23–Aug. 7)

60. Deliverance (1970) by James Dickey (Aug. 7–13)

61. Edisto (1984) by Padgett Powell (Aug. 14–17)

62. The Stonemason (1994) by Cormac McCarthy (Aug. 19–20)

63. The Sunset Limited (2006) by Cormac McCarthy (Aug. 21–22)

64. Yonder Stands Your Orphan (2001) by Barry Hannah (Aug. 23–28)

65. Long, Last, Happy (2010) by Barry Hannah (Aug. 29–31)

66. Hush Hush (2012) by Steven Barthelme (Sept. 1–3)

67. *Light in August (1932) by William Faulkner (Sept. 4–9)

68. Doctor Martino and Other Stories (1934) by William Faulkner (Sept. 10–18)

69. *Absalom, Absalom! (1936) by William Faulkner (Sept. 19–23)

70. The Unvanquished (1938) by William Faulkner (Sept. 25–27)

71. The Wild Palms (1939) by William Faulkner (Sept. 28–Oct. 3)

72. Lapvona (2022) by Ottessa Moshfegh (Oct. 17–19)

73. The Gardener’s Son (1996) by Cormac McCarthy (Oct. 24)

74. The Passenger (2022) by Cormac McCarthy (Oct. 25–29)

75. The English Understand Wool (2022) by Helen DeWitt (Oct. 30)

76. The Dead Zone (1979) by Stephen King (Oct. 31–Nov. 4)

77. Watershed (1996) by Percival Everett (Nov. 5–7)

78. Telephone (2020) by Percival Everett (Nov. 8–9)

79. The Trees (2021) by Percival Everett (Nov. 10–11)

80. Dr. No (2022) by Percival Everett (Nov. 14–16)

81. Life Is Everywhere (2022) by Lucy Ives (Nov. 17–21)

82. Dead on Top of Saturn (2022) by Stephen Sturgeon (Nov. 22)

83. Is Mother Dead (2020) by Vigdis Hjorth (Nov. 22–26)

84. Liberation Day (2022) by George Saunders (Nov. 27–29)

85. NDA (2022) by Caitlin Forst et al. (Dec. 3–4)

86. Life Among the Aryans (2022) by Ishmael Reed (Dec. 6)

87. Stella Maris (2022) by Cormac McCarthy (Dec. 7–9)

88. The Twilight World (2021) by Werner Herzog (Dec. 10)

89. Aesthetica (2022) by Allie Rowbottom (Dec. 11–13)

90. Pinktoes (1961) by Chester Himes (Dec. 14–16)

91. A Case of Rape (1963) by Chester Himes (Dec. 17–18)

92. Cotton Comes to Harlem (1964) by Chester Himes (Dec. 19–21)

93. The Heat’s On (1966) by Chester Himes (Dec. 22–24)

94. Blind Man With a Pistol (1969) by Chester Himes (Dec. 25–27)

95. Plan B (1983) by Chester Himes (Dec. 28–30)

96. Santa’s Descent (2022) by Brandon Brown and J. Gordon Faylor (Dec. 31)

*Previously read

# books read: 96

# books read for the first time: 89

# books reread: 7

# books read on average per month: 8

# books written by men: 66
# books written by women: 28
# books written by more than one person: 2
# distinct authors: 42
# male authors: 28
# female authors: 14
# novels: 54
# novellas: 1
# novella collections: 1
# short story collections: 18
# memoirs: 3

# essay collections: 1
# books of nonfiction: 5
# plays: 3
# screenplays: 1
# chapbooks: 5
# graphic novels: 4
# books translated from another language to english: 14
# books published in 2022: 17
# books published in 21st century: 32
# books published in 20th century: 62
# books published in 19th century: 2

Standouts:

Brave New World (1932) by Aldous Huxley

The Box Man (1973) by Kōbō Abe

Bullet Train (2010) by Kōtarō Isaka

Babel-17 (1966) by Samuel R. Delany

Times Square Red, Times Square Blue (1999) by Samuel R. Delany

These Thirteen (1931) by William Faulkner

Absalom, Absalom! (1936) by William Faulkner

Clock Without Hands (1961) by Carson McCullers

A Curtain of Green (1941) by Eudora Welty

The Complete Stories (1971) by Flannery O’Connor

A Confederacy of Dunces (1980) by John Kennedy Toole

Deliverance (1970) by James Dickey

Yonder Stands Your Orphan (2001) by Barry Hannah

Lapvona (2022) by Ottessa Moshfegh

The Passenger (2022) by Cormac McCarthy

Stella Maris (2022) by Cormac McCarthy

Dr. No (2022) by Percival Everett

The Heat’s On (1966) by Chester Himes

Plan B (1983) by Chester Himes

Takeaway:

When you read every day, you live two lives: your crappy ongoing one and a conciser, ingenious segment conceived by somebody else for your benefit.

11/15/22

Landlord took our basement doors off the hinges five days ago. I saw where he put one, but the other was conspicuously absent for all my snooping. I had three dreams about the missing door. This afternoon it reappeared in its frame. I left two cupcakes in the barn. My dreams misled me.